I find myself sitting with guilt while I am in the process of telling my truth.This kind of guilt I am feeling is so guarded and hidden internally, at times it’s hard to even know it is guilt. And I have to ask myself, how is this truly serving my life? Over the years of doing the work of letting go of my past with my parents, I have forgiven them for the choices they have made of not being responsible for raising me. They also showed me at a very young age what it looks like to give up on your hopes and dreams. Sharing my story and honoring my process has made it hard for me to ignore the truth, which is if I have fully forgiven them and have let it go, then why am I afraid to shine in my own light? Are we not supposed to surpass our parent’s journey in our own glorious way?
Yes, my growth is different than being the first one to go to college or become a doctor. My journey is to be a storyteller and my story is my life. One way or another I have been protecting my mother & father from their own journey of truth. If I have forgiven them, then why am I still protecting them from what they should have been responsible for? I have to remind myself that I am made of love, hope, compassion and forgiveness. There is fire in my belly and I am a truth seeker! I might have to scream it from the mountain top or write it on my bathroom mirror for those moments I forget…
First Posted: August 26, 2014
Born and raised in Los Angeles, Nona’s life began as a fairytale. She was the daughter of a famous actress Sue Lyon (Lolita), and NFL player (Roland Harrison). Her father was absent for most of her childhood, and being a bi-racial child, she had questions at a very early age about why she looked so different.
By age 12, Sue remarried, and her relationship with her mother was never the same. Nona was kicked out of her house and by the age of 13 she was taken to a halfway house. That same year her mother placed her in an insane asylum where she stayed for almost 3 months. That kind of betrayal by her mother, a woman she once idolized, broke Nona’s spirit in a way which would take years to recover from. The author currently lives in Los Angeles…
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